Week # 8

I have to apologize for not blogging the last 2 weeks.  I have no desire to type, just think. I have not come out of this 'funk' for 2 weeks. Last night was shot # 8 and I was disappointed that I was unable to 'prepare' as I have in the weeks before. It is my understanding that this is 'normal' for this stage in treatment. It's scary to also know that just as I become use to feeling this way(a few short weeks) I will hit another low. Lower than this, really ? S**T !

         Physically, I am drained. I understand, that my body is using every ounce of energy to fight this. So I am compliant in allowing it to. I am doing much of nothing, but feeling the symptoms. Mentally & emotionally, I am still strong. Spiritually, God tells me I can do this. 40 weeks to go is a looonng time ! Yes, it's still worth it. I will fight this dragon with every breathe I take ! I will win !

Notes while I've been down

Friday, Oct. 29, 2010

6th week-felt good day after. Fri. & Sat. useless. Achy, allergic, no energy. Sun. & Mon. blurred vision, no desire for comp. cleaned a lot, slowly but steady.

7th week- Thurs. & Fri. both reaction days. Still trying to stay active, is hard. Drained at the least effort. Sore throat, dry mouth, stuffy nose ,diarrhea  is prominent  2nd day after. Mentally, thoughts are zipping by. Can't stay focused for too long on any one thing. Again, no desire to use computer.

Today is Tuesday November 2, 2010.

Tomorrow is shot day & I have not yet bounced back from the last two.

 I fell achy,, sore throat, headache, cough and nausea are the worst. Very tired. Chest & stomach muscles ache due to cough & nausea. Skin is very dry. Using Cortisone 10 cream on the ankle & baby oil during bath, air dry. Feeling better  with those. Tired of blowing my nose & breathing through my mouth.